Confessions/Reality

My fellow blogger and old childhood friend, Stephanie Howell, proposed a challenge to her blog readers. I think I'll take it.

The challenge is to get real. Share some confessions! I can honestly say when I began blogging my posts were real, raw, and just honest. Over time it has become more of a what Claire is up too blog (it's easier!). I do make the disclaimer under the "about me section: complete profile" and here in this post that this is just a glimpse into our lives.

These are my confessions!!

1. I lose my patience...A LOT...as a mother. More than I am proud of. I am guilty of yelling at Claire and recently dropped the f bomb which she repeated. My heart breaks with guilt once I calm down especially when she is sound asleep and so innocent. Sometimes I wonder who the real toddler in this house is? Mommy sure knows how to stomp her feet too.

2. I am OCD about cleaning and throwing things away. I can't even stand the mail to sit on the counter. I was like this before I had a baby and it's worse now. I guess the small parts of my life I can control became magnified once a baby took the rest of my "control" away.

3. I watch General Hospital 5 days a week. I'd watch it 7 but it's not on. HA! I love the soap and have been watching it since 1995. This is my little escape each evening. Give me a tabloid magazine and a few more reality shows on DVR and it's a dream day!! Bachelor anyone?? I clearly know none of these things are based in reality...that's why I love them.

4. Speaking of TV. I (we) let Claire watch more TV than is probably allowed in most households but I am okay with that. She is super smart, bright, and happy. I am horrible at sitting and playing all day. TV is a must!

5. This has gotten MUCH better but during Claire's first year of school she was such a PAIN IN THE BUTT to get into the car after school. I just couldn't handle the other moms witnessing the backseat meltdowns (she just didn't want my help getting in and she wouldn't get in the seat either) so I started parking far away. I would be waving across the parking lot to another mom...."HEY GIRL! HOW ARE YA?! GREAT TO SEE YOU!" then shut the car door and bang my head on the steering wheel. Good times. I have to laugh at this now though. We've come a long way but oh.my.god. I was gonna drive away and never come back! ha! I felt like the most fake mom in the parking lot trying to play it cool.

6. Marriage is not easy and not easy with kids. I don't care if you have one or 10. It changes things and I miss the times before baby but I wouldn't go back. Not ever. I just want to say that it can be hard and we are no stranger to that. 'Nuf said!

So there ya have it. A few nuggets of the real me! It feels good!! I think we all know as moms that it's not easy. We lose our cool, our minds, our bodies! It's all worth it and that goes without saying. Keep it real my friends.