She

She...

-is 9lbs, 15ozs
-has reflux like her big sister and spits up a lot. sometimes projectiles through the nose.
-lives in a bib because of said reflux problem
-totally has my long toes! poor kid!
-is a good night sleeper. we only have one feeding at night!! 9pm-3am then back down for a couple more hours from 4-6am.
-is pretty chill but would love it if we held her all day and kept her soothie in her mouth for her.
-is getting used to being in her carseat and adjusting to life with claire on the go!


She...

-is not really into the baby but is coming around.
-is into Thomas the Train still
-LOVES the movie Cars and it is now her new "thing"! we have lots of cars and trains around here
-is a definite tomboy. i love that she sees no gender yet.
-is social but doesn't like people in her personal space until she knows you. she keeps to herself a lot at parties and other big gatherings. she's more of a one on one kid. (kind of like her mom).
-breaks my heart when she screams at me and it happens a lot lately. she is adjusting and coping to her new life as a sibling.
-can write all her letters
-loves to tell time
-is challenging me to the core
-is my heart and soul


She...

-is doing better than she thought.
-isn't nearly as sleep deprived as expected.
-is obsessed with shopping on amazon!!!
-super forgetful. pregnancy brain to baby brain...from bad to worse!
-is 5lbs away from her pre-pregnancy weight but the shape of the body is SO NOT the same.
-is technically 15lbs away from ALL pre-pregnancy weight but doesn't care to be that skinny again.
-loves having 2 girls
-is learning to juggle 2 girls
-is committed to working on my emotions as a parent. yell less. be compassionate and help claire work through her own emotions right now.
-isn't looking for perfection but has a willingness to be better.

Happy 1 Month Paige

I cannot believe one month has passed already! I snapped some pics of my red headed beauty! Yes, we are in awe of her hair! We love it!

This past month has gone rather well. I was so scared of having a newborn again since I had post partum depression after Claire was born. I saw this time of having a new baby as a not so good time in my life and was afraid of going through it again. I "missed" some of the joy...a lot of the joy actually...of having a baby so to have things going smoothly with Paige has been such a wonderful experience. I have had some baby blues moments and I have cried over breast feeding woes but the difference is it hasn't set me back. It's been normal. Last week I went to the OB to check on some pain I was having and I started to cry when the doctor asked if I have been depressed at all since the baby was born {given my history}. I told her things had been overall really good but that I felt like the other shoe may drop at any time and that sneaky little thing called depression was going to tap me on the shoulder like the boogie man. "He" was going to steal my joy again. I realized then that I had to stop thinking that way because I know better now. I know the signs and so far so good!!! I am here in the now and present in Paige's life. The only thing I am not sure of is how to feed her on the go! lol! Her darn reflux makes this tricky. She will be living in a bib like Claire did for the next 4 months or more! Getting Claire to school with Paige is pretty much my biggest dilemma right now. I will be working on that routine and I am sure we'll figure it out just about the time Paige starts to change to some other schedule!

Happy One Month Birthday Paige! We love you so much and in 4 short weeks you have brought so much joy into our lives!!! Joy that I can really feel!!!

Cuteness

So adorable! Yes, I think she's the cutest thing ever!! It's been such a different experience having a baby this go round. Just having experience and support makes all the difference! I feel like I am so much more "present" right now than I was with Claire. It's nice. The newborn days are upon us though and the lack of sleep is no fun but it's manageable right now. Some nights I am burnt out and some moments I feel good.

Overall, we are good here! We have gotten out of the house and are learning to adjust to life as 4 (and life as 3 M-F). Claire is still poopin on the potty and yes, this is worth writing about! It's been 7 months in the making here and once you have kids this is your life!!!!!! I want to crack a beer everytime she takes a #2 and celebrate right there in the bathroom! I honestly thought once the baby was born that if we hadn't crossed this bridge that she would regress more but as usual she has proven that she gets through every phase when she is ready.